Ooops... sorry about not reading the words in the first paragraph... that's a raw pain. I just went through a close friend's death, from cancer. It was hard to see my friend fading away as well. It still pains me when I think about her or when I meet up with close friends when we are meeting up together for small talks etc. I have yet to meet those friends 'coz the pain of meeting up and seeing an empty chair 'coz we talked in a group.

However, people console me that death is but a part of life. We should live with it. And so it goes... i have gone through a few deaths in the family, paternal & maternal grandmas, uncle, favourite aunt... It just went numb on me. However, I have sweet memories whenever I think of them.