Savion

[icarus]

It's 9am.

"I'm late, I'm sorry. I was looking at the numbers and they didn't make any sense."

"What numbers?"

"The numbers on the clock."

There's reality, and then there's the stuff I have to do. Trivialities: I'm supposed to be at work. Reality: How did my cousin get the gun?

In the car: speeding to work. Thinking: My brother had been sure he'd be okay. I'd been sure. I wanted to go to the funeral. But we hadn't been close. How do I explain that I care? There'd been no sign of it before.

The practical: All eyes are on me as I walk in. The reality: My cousin had been found in the front yard with a bullet in his head. My first thought had been, "How considerate of him." No mess to clean up. I didn't say it out loud.

I had a cousin yesterday.


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Rest In Peace, Savion Gabriel, age 22. I don't know why you did it, and don't have the right to ask.

Comments

[monanotlisa]

My sympathies.

[icarus]

Thank you.

[boxofdelights]

I'm so sorry.

[icarus]

Thank you, I appreciate it.

[wyomingnot]

I'm so sorry.

*hugs*

[icarus]

I want him to be in the hospital, recovering from a failed suicide attempt. Not gone. He was a gentle, kind person I was looking forward to getting to know.

[wyomingnot]

I have more I could (want to) say, but. This isn't about me, and my rambling isn't what you need.

Hopefully next time, you'll get the chance.

*more hugs*

[icarus]

Yes. That really touches a chord. My problems are a very small thing in this world. And also, yes, I plan to see him again. Will make prayers to that effect.

[busaikko]

I'm so sorry to hear that ((hugs))

[icarus]

Thank you. The memorial service is this coming Sunday.

[tassosss]

I'm so sorry.

[icarus]

Doesn't seem real yet. When he was in the hospital I joked, Dude, you owe me $108. Don't you bail on me.

[elf]

The universe is so big, and there are so few of us; every light that is extinguished is one less beacon in the endless dark. All we can do is to hold our little candles higher and hope to reach the next one whose flame is sputtering before it goes out.

Many sympathies, and much hope that you and the others who knew him have enough comforts and supports to endure the sorrows.

[icarus]

That's beautiful. Thank you.

[mrshamill]

Oh sweetheart. I'm so very sorry. I'm holding you in my thoughts and in the light.

[icarus]

Yeah, we're hanging in there. Neither me nor my mother have bathed in about 48 hours.

[quinfirefrorefiddle]

I am so sorry.

[icarus]

Thank you. It's very sad.

[senmut]

Peace unto the days that will be, and peace for the troubled that rest now.

[icarus]

Very appropriate, thank you.

[beledibabe]

I'm so sorry. I've been through it twice -- afterwards, after the shock and once the grief settles in, the questions, the what-ifs, can be overwhelming. ::many hugs::

[icarus]

It was a weekends of questions, what-ifs, asking why. There will never be sufficient answer. His mom and sister are both in counseling, fortunately, and they're moving shortly (it happened at home) -- so both of those are positives for them.

Someone told us: "They'll need you in a week or two." Yes. That's when everyone else will've moved on, but they won't be able to.

[thalia]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[icarus]

Thank you.

[ursula]

[icarus]

Beautiful and so fitting. Thank you.

[wanted_a_pony]

Sympathies & hugs, dear. You & your family are in my thoughts. <3

[icarus]

Thank you.