Skating!fic: tearing out my hair
Apr. 24th, 2006 03:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
icarusFrustrated with the skating!fic.
It's in pieces. I have a grand sex scene but none of the tension that gets me there. I have another scene typed that (in the right place) might possibly work. But it's definitely after the relationship. I have a flashback, and some John wheedling. Like a flower that has fallen to petals in my hand I have lots and lots of skating!fic, but there's no cohesion.
I've been outlining and diagramming, and I'm not sure I can write it in pieces like this, writing later pieces before earlier pieces. I have another John scene written now that could be next, but it feels... wheel-spinn-y to me. It's not saying or doing anything new or adding to the story.
So I've gone back to outlining. But I have several interweaving stories.
I chatted with two people about it a week ago (yes, I'm adding you as soon as I have my own computer back). One got my momentum going and there's a very necessary scene coming because of her. The other pointed out that the structure of the story is arranged around the competitions.
I've several outlines now to figure out where it's going.
There's the relationship outline, how the sex happens and -- ooops. I'm not quite sure what happens after the sex until the end of the story. I know what happens there.
Then there's the skating technique outline, how Rodney trains John to skate and -- ooops. The "two competition" plan is good for the melodrama, but not so good for the skating I think. I'm missing lots of puzzle pieces here and, oh, I've got to put in the pairs skating, don't I?
Then there's the Rodney outline, the theme of fame and -- ooops. I have hints and bits and trickles and flashbacks that want to emerge. This part's a tangled ball, especially now that Radek has appeared. I've no idea how this is going to resolve.
Then I have the reality of skating outline, with John's injuries and hard work and Rodney's complaints and -- ooops. Where do I go with the injuries? Plus, man, the reality's getting a little heavy-handed. The drudgery is part of the story, but still.
Augh! I'm ready to just slap something on the table so I can have fun. But in reality? I believe in structure and outlines and know I've reached that point of complexity where if I don't get the story under control it will never end. Why was The Walls Of Jericho so much easier than this?
Oh. Right. I got stuck just before the action scene on that one.
Meanwhile, I have a complete "John screws up" Gen story. The outline is neat and tidy. It's ready to be fleshed out and roll off the conveyer belt. It's an interesting and meaty subject that I want to write. I'm only putting it on hold because I need to keep moving on the skating!fic (shush, this stubborness is how I've finished pretty much all my WiPs). But I'm afraid if I set it aside it'll diiiiiie in my notes.
Meanwhile, I have a John/Rodney sex story where, damnitalltohell, Rodney has just balked. And I need to not write it until after I get the skating!fic rolling along.
Meanwhile, I shouldn't be doing any of these. I'm so bloody behind on school from last week. At least I'm on top of the reading for two of my classes. *sighs*
It's in pieces. I have a grand sex scene but none of the tension that gets me there. I have another scene typed that (in the right place) might possibly work. But it's definitely after the relationship. I have a flashback, and some John wheedling. Like a flower that has fallen to petals in my hand I have lots and lots of skating!fic, but there's no cohesion.
I've been outlining and diagramming, and I'm not sure I can write it in pieces like this, writing later pieces before earlier pieces. I have another John scene written now that could be next, but it feels... wheel-spinn-y to me. It's not saying or doing anything new or adding to the story.
So I've gone back to outlining. But I have several interweaving stories.
I chatted with two people about it a week ago (yes, I'm adding you as soon as I have my own computer back). One got my momentum going and there's a very necessary scene coming because of her. The other pointed out that the structure of the story is arranged around the competitions.
I've several outlines now to figure out where it's going.
There's the relationship outline, how the sex happens and -- ooops. I'm not quite sure what happens after the sex until the end of the story. I know what happens there.
Then there's the skating technique outline, how Rodney trains John to skate and -- ooops. The "two competition" plan is good for the melodrama, but not so good for the skating I think. I'm missing lots of puzzle pieces here and, oh, I've got to put in the pairs skating, don't I?
Then there's the Rodney outline, the theme of fame and -- ooops. I have hints and bits and trickles and flashbacks that want to emerge. This part's a tangled ball, especially now that Radek has appeared. I've no idea how this is going to resolve.
Then I have the reality of skating outline, with John's injuries and hard work and Rodney's complaints and -- ooops. Where do I go with the injuries? Plus, man, the reality's getting a little heavy-handed. The drudgery is part of the story, but still.
Augh! I'm ready to just slap something on the table so I can have fun. But in reality? I believe in structure and outlines and know I've reached that point of complexity where if I don't get the story under control it will never end. Why was The Walls Of Jericho so much easier than this?
Oh. Right. I got stuck just before the action scene on that one.
Meanwhile, I have a complete "John screws up" Gen story. The outline is neat and tidy. It's ready to be fleshed out and roll off the conveyer belt. It's an interesting and meaty subject that I want to write. I'm only putting it on hold because I need to keep moving on the skating!fic (shush, this stubborness is how I've finished pretty much all my WiPs). But I'm afraid if I set it aside it'll diiiiiie in my notes.
Meanwhile, I have a John/Rodney sex story where, damnitalltohell, Rodney has just balked. And I need to not write it until after I get the skating!fic rolling along.
Meanwhile, I shouldn't be doing any of these. I'm so bloody behind on school from last week. At least I'm on top of the reading for two of my classes. *sighs*