The Blaze of BUSY
Jul. 31st, 2012 03:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
icarusWent on a Blaze!of!Busy a while back. Couldn't get laundry done, wasn't eating right (or at all), wasn't doing even a five-minute practice in the am.
Was writing (nonfic stuff), teaching Tibetan class once a week, tutoring SATs six days a week and then driving folks from DC to the temple (an hour and a half trip for me), and being the banhammer in an online Buddhist!wank (yes, we have them, and you know the time those can take).
It was worth it. The cat box was kept clean at least. But overall my life was such a wreck by the end of that period.
Then Dzigar Kongtrul Rinpoche visited.
Twenty years ago, he was the young guy in the black bomber jacket -- I thought he was just some kid (he was 24ish then) -- slouched in my livingroom. Turned he was The Lama (oopsie, glad I wasn't rude).
He's always had helpful advice.
This visit was no exception. He advised me, "Make your life work for you." Said it several times.
I put on the breaks.
I'd been saying yes to everything because I wanted to be helpful, but it was too much. My long-term goals were being smothered in short term demands. I was letting my desire to be helpful (and please people, yes) run my life. As a result I was neglecting my schooling, family, friends, practice, the things that matter to me.
So, hi. I'm back.
Was writing (nonfic stuff), teaching Tibetan class once a week, tutoring SATs six days a week and then driving folks from DC to the temple (an hour and a half trip for me), and being the banhammer in an online Buddhist!wank (yes, we have them, and you know the time those can take).
It was worth it. The cat box was kept clean at least. But overall my life was such a wreck by the end of that period.
Then Dzigar Kongtrul Rinpoche visited.
Twenty years ago, he was the young guy in the black bomber jacket -- I thought he was just some kid (he was 24ish then) -- slouched in my livingroom. Turned he was The Lama (oopsie, glad I wasn't rude).
He's always had helpful advice.
This visit was no exception. He advised me, "Make your life work for you." Said it several times.
I put on the breaks.
I'd been saying yes to everything because I wanted to be helpful, but it was too much. My long-term goals were being smothered in short term demands. I was letting my desire to be helpful (and please people, yes) run my life. As a result I was neglecting my schooling, family, friends, practice, the things that matter to me.
So, hi. I'm back.
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