LJ: I am an addict.

[icarus]

I missed my morning classes today.

The all-day tutor training this weekend found me falling asleep in my chair. At one point I answered something and discovered I'd drifted off halfway through the question. So I gave an answer that was the exact opposite of what I meant and... oh god, it was embarrassing.

I wish they'd told me it was a two-weekend training. Shit. I can't make it through another day of their telling me how disorienting it is being in a foreign country. Lived in India, Germany, yes, yes, I know. Tutored Tibetan refugees for two years, trust me, I know.

In the future I am just going to have one person do website design. That person can delegate as they see fit, and I'll just give the final nod. If someone goes off on a tear and decides to start doing the first person's job, they can work it out with their boss. I don't want to be in the middle.

I stayed up all night compiling Percy Ficathon lists for the website. I still need everyone's email for the feedback forms, not everyone used the weasleyworship template for the headers. I want to make the new deadline the 15th, and that looks like what it's gonna be. But I'm worried about the 10 or so people who haven't responded. Are they going to write anything?

I should not have gotten on chat with the Dungeons authors, I knew my resolve to be off by 9pm would crumble. But I was so tired and it was fun, I tell you, fun!

I'm taking four classes, tutoring, working on the Ficathon, coordinating the website, writing original fiction, wringing my hands over my waaaaay-behind fanfiction, tutoring ESL and waaaaay-behind on my research paper. I still have to write my Faulkner paper, finish the final edit on my magazine orig fanfic, write the sex scene for Keego Harbor, turn in my paperwork and proposal for the Service Learning, turn in my proposal for my research paper, do make up work.

wildernessguru is feeling neglected and depressed. I put him on with the Dungeons authors and he had a blast with 'the girls.' I tried to spend some quality time with him, snuggled up last night because he went in the bedroom at 8pm and just... lay there. I caught a little tear. I don't know what to do. There's so little of me left right now. I can't make him happy. I read what's going on in wikdsushi's journal and I want to... do something. And can't.

And I missed my morning classes today. I'm too wrung out and limp to care about my classes at the moment.

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[femmequixotic]

I'm taking four classes, tutoring, working on the Ficathon, coordinating the website, writing original fiction, wringing my hands over my waaaaay-behind fanfiction, tutoring ESL and waaaaay-behind on my research paper. I still have to write my Faulkner paper, finish the final edit on my magazine orig fanfic, write the sex scene for Keego Harbor, turn in my paperwork and proposal for the Service Learning, turn in my proposal for my research paper, do make up work.

You know, if there's anything I can do to help in any way possible, please tell me. I'd be more than willing.

And I'm sending you a virtual footrub right now. *hugs* Because everyone can use a virtual footrub on a Monday morning. :)

wildernessguru is feeling neglected and depressed. I put him on with the Dungeons authors and he had a blast with 'the girls.'

And we had a blast with him. :) His and Veni's conversation was delightful. (And yes, tell him we do still want pics. *grin*)

He needs to chat with us more often. We love the Guru.

[tinderblast.livejournal.com]

Fighting the usual 'should I just sympathise vs. give opinion' debate ... hmmm. Opinion. You're overloaded and aren't prioritising. Second opinion: it's none of my business, especially as someone who does the same. Suggestions bursts out a la infamous chest-scene in Alien: But can't someone else take up some of the ficathon slack, at least temporarily?

-brodie

[electricandroid.livejournal.com]

Cara, go easy on yourself. You'll end up like me being rushed in and out of neurologists, with an invisble, uncurable disease. Calm down. I'd offer to help, i'm snowed under at the moment though. Anything I can help with after the 24th of June (yes - I have exams until then - joyous timetable) just ask.

In fact, even if you need someone to vent at, or anything of the sort I'm on yahoo all the time, just in "hiding" mode. And nothing is worth your health, you know that, I know that. Wait, you're the one supposed to be giving me sensible advice, not the other way around.

I suggest extending the deadline to the 15th regardless of what people say, give yourself some time. You have enough on your plate as it is! About WG, I don't know - strangely enough for my evil callous self, I'm coming around to the way of thinking which says 'sod fandom time, sod comitments which are not fun in my free time', and spend time with people who actually mean something to you.

You need a break love, you really do. Fuck classes for a week and calm down. Fandom, or uni-shite, or dungeons, or percy-ficathon bullshit, is not worth making yourself sick and worn down over. I learnt this the hard way. At the end of the day, the first priority is yourself, not some mythical grade average, not an illusory deadline for fic, not being pulled back into dungeons (you think I did not notice - *grin*). Calm down, make yourself some tea (yes, its me, tea rocks) and chill out.

And I'm here if you need me.

Yours,

e.a.

[mad_maudlin]

Turn off your computer and take. A. Break.

Seriously. Forget about fandom for a while--we'll still be here when you get back, and so will Percy. Let the website people sort themselves out, let the Ficathon deadline pass (they make such lovely rushing sounds, you know) and leave the original writing for a time when you'll be able to devote all your attention to it.

Then schedule yourself some Guru time. It'll do you both good.

::cuddles from the world of finals::

[wenelda.livejournal.com]

I agree with mad_maudlin. The fandom will still be around, and those who really enjoy your work, so just take a break, focus on wildernessguru and yourself -- you can't spread yourself too thinly, you know. :) *Hugs*

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

I'm sending you a virtual footrub right now. *hugs* Because everyone can use a virtual footrub on a Monday morning. :)

Weirdly, that actually worked.

You know, if there's anything I can do to help in any way possible, please tell me. I'd be more than willing.

I've been meaning to follow-up. I spoke with singtoangels and she needs... *flips through notes*... oh hell, I'll send you her email.

I'm going to post a request for someone to consolidate the timelines in the Dungeons Author forum. Just haven't got to asking for specific help yet (you know, delegating responsibly takes time :D). I volunteered (well, was volunteered ;) while I was still on vacation and drifting into my first week of school, clueless as to what I'd gotten myself into, before the website appeared on the horizon, before the request for original fic popped up, before I learned Service Learning (ie, the tutoring) was part of my Asian History class.. *throws up hands*. It's all opportunities. When it rains, it pours.

And we had a blast with him. :) His and Veni's conversation was delightful. (And yes, tell him we do still want pics. *grin*) He needs to chat with us more often. We love the Guru.

Er. On those pics. Unless he plans to email them and have someone else put them up at www.photobucket.com, he's gonna need to wait until I have time to do this. He's doing great on the computer for a man who's never set foot in an office and spent his worklife flying in helicopters over raging forest-fires, but.. he has not yet figured out how to reply to LJ comments emailed to him. Yesterday he forwarded them to me to 'handle' for him. AAAAAAAAUuuuuuugh!

He loves chat, and his typing's vastly improved. He asks, "why do they like me?"

Icarus

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

LOL! Great - and accurate - observation. It's good to hear from you, (I'm still snickering over those 20 worst songs -- heh. I wish 'Bridge Over Troubled Water' made it, personally.)

I'm prioritizing all right: everything unimportant and fun goes to the top of the list.

I am delegating madly: both the Percy Ficathon website (the delegating process became a bit of a mess), the Percy fic announcements (thank you merrycontrary!), and the repair of the Icarus Website (currently can't update it without having it hang for 20 minutes). Delegating itself takes time and involves one deeply in the less vital projects you're trying to get off your plate. *pulls out hair*

I'm getting some finished fic out there and posted to tide people over. Then I plan to have the original fic emailed shortly (cursive is doing the beta review) and that will be done. Finished. Finally. The other fic activity can wait till the weekend.

That leaves school. The most important project I've been putting off. It's huge. The tutoring is taking the most time, yet counts the least. Don't know what to do about that.

As for wildernessguru... boy. I don't know what to do. I think he needs more than just attention from me. But he's right. My LJ-time generally takes away from time with him.

Icarus

[femmequixotic]

Weirdly, that actually worked.

Damn. I'm good. (Just ask cursive. *grin*)

I've been meaning to follow-up. I spoke with singtoangels and she needs... *flips through notes*... oh hell, I'll send you her email.

Cool. I'll keep an eye out for it.

I'm going to post a request for someone to consolidate the timelines in the Dungeons Author forum.

I can do it if you want. Idiot!Boss is out of the office this week, so I've got a bit of spare time.

It's all opportunities. When it rains, it pours.

Isn't that the truth? And you've got to do some triage here, hon. So, yeah...I'd be more than willing to pull it together if you'd like.

Er. On those pics. Unless he plans to email them and have someone else put them up at www.photobucket.com, he's gonna need to wait until I have time to do this.

Well, he can always email them to one of us. Was it Veni who mentioned photobucket? I can put 'em up in my website directory too, if he wants, and people can snag them from there. I've got all kinds of crap stuck up there. *grin*

He's doing great on the computer for a man who's never set foot in an office and spent his worklife flying in helicopters over raging forest-fires, but.. he has not yet figured out how to reply to LJ comments emailed to him. Yesterday he forwarded them to me to 'handle' for him. AAAAAAAAUuuuuuugh!

*laughs* Those little bastards do get a bit perplexing at times...

He loves chat, and his typing's vastly improved. He asks, "why do they like me?"

Because he's cute and charming and funny and smart and really, really interesting to talk to.

To begin with. *grin*

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

The 15th, yeah. I decided that but - *tears out hair* - haven't had time/energy to announce. So many little details. I'll do it now, and then it'll be fine.

Fortunately my second request got all but 8 authors responding. The real point of the poll is to be able to know who saw the announcement, eh? I have a list. So if people complain later, I know they saw it. Also, it tells me if there's anyone who dropped out. Normally I'd follow up with those 8, but I'm just gonna have to hope for the best.

I started to get involved in hp_dungeons again over vacation, spring break. I fell in love with Niko (right alongside Percy). Now... whoops. *embarrassed laugh*

I'm making lunch for WG. That should help.

Icarus

[xenoface.livejournal.com]

Do this: turn off your computer. get up. go to your bed. lie down. close your eyes. take a nap. when you wake up, do everything, one by one. use time as a guide. do the first one to go. everything'll be alright. it's all a matter of being calm and at peace.

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Yeah, good advice. Thank you. I'm trying to delegate, but the delegating is as involved as the actual work if not more so. :)

Icarus

[electricandroid.livejournal.com]

No worries honey - at least you have not spent all day staring at a truss going "This cannot be right." You figure out the mistake... and then... you mess up the calculations.

My brain is porridge. You can serve it to WG if you so desire ;)

[ursulakohl.livejournal.com]

So, how 'bout some irresponsible advice? I got through the dull bits of TA training ("Why don't you get in groups and discuss what you think it might be like to be a TA?") by knitting; you should go it one better, bring a large notepad next weekend, and write ;)

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

*slaps forehead*

You're brilliant. It'll look like I'm taking assiduous notes. Gosh, you would survive very nicely with Ron and Draco in the Death Eater Ministry.

Icarus

[ursulakohl.livejournal.com]

Thanks . . . I think. (Let's pray the Ministry doesn't know what to do with an arithmancer!)

(Sorry if this shows up twice, Livejournal is acting funny.)

[xenoface.livejournal.com]

Heh. what ever you do, everything works out and it will all come to pass, even when you don't want it to. for some reason, God does that to people, if only to see them praying, maybe, asking for his assistance.

But that's just me.

Think about it. :3

[maelwaedd.livejournal.com]

Shit honey. *makes tea, gives you a timeturner so you can have five minutes to drink it!*

I can't help with coding or anything, but if you have problems with people not writing stuff and you need the responses, I can write something. If you need me. I got rid of the viruses on my computer, and although I haven't got heaps of free time, I can find a few hours to write a fic if you're short on responses.

[tinderblast.livejournal.com]

I'm prioritizing all right: everything unimportant and fun goes to the top of the list.

*nods with the seasoned guilt of a long-time procrastinator*

That leaves school. The most important project I've been putting off. It's huge. The tutoring is taking the most time, yet counts the least. Don't know what to do about that.

Why is that always the way? Important = scary = left to the last minute.

I think he needs more than just attention from me. But he's right. My LJ-time generally takes away from time with him.

But - you're only going to be a student for x amount of time, not forever, and some time-juggling is to be expected. Also, your online time is your relaxation/creative time, which is important and maybe quality time in lieu of this wouldn't be all that great because you haven'y unwound and de-stressed, etc.

So maybe a little structure to your time together - the old 'date night' resolution - would work will you're in a better space, time-wise?

-brodie

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

That would be wonderful. Hopefully this weekend I'll be able to follow up with them to be sure they're still participating.

Icarus

[maelwaedd.livejournal.com]

Cool. :)
*hugs*

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Oh.

Well, I've been a practicing Buddhist for the last 20 years. Actually, I was a fully ordained Buddhist monastic for 14 of those years. I've done a lot of retreat, including six months solitary, though really what counts in Buddhism is the mind and intention more than a 'resume of accomplishments.' *snort*

Hmm. This pushing God makes me a little concerned about prostelytizing here.

There are two types of Christians that I've met: those comfortable with others with genuine spiritual faiths that are different than their own, and those who feel the need to convert others.

It's my observation that the deeper the spiritual experience, the more likely it is that person is able to accept other faiths.

There's a kind of recognition that happens when two spiritual people meet -- it's such an oasis to find someone committed to their spirituality that it doesn't really matter which faith it is.

Last week I had an amazing conversation with a sincere Muslim. The depth of the discipline of Islam is profound, and I now have the utmost respect for it. My best friend from High School is a Minister, and my mentor from school is a former Catholic monk. He sees no argument between my spiritual practice and his own. Nor do I.

But if you're uncomfortable with the Buddhist part of the web design on my site, please let me know.

Icarus

[xenoface.livejournal.com]

Not at all. if anything it's very relaxing, the way the colors mix.

Also, i am not uncomfortable about your faith. Honestly, i am surrounded by faithful Christians, be it catholic or born again or excosists or whatever. The different beliefs of people interest me because their all so similar and different at the same time.

For me, i will stay a christian for now.

besides ... my grandfather was a buddhist. He was a very insightful, interesting man. :)

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Oh good. Whew.

*wipes sweat off brow*

You can probably tell I've had some bad experiences with a certain sort of Christian that's just, maaaannnnnn, really determined to create an argument.

For me, i will stay a christian for now.

*snickers* Heh. Yeah.

Icarus

[xenoface.livejournal.com]

Hehe ... we're both humans, anyway.

I'm done with your layout for the 'Icarus Slash Fiction' site.

So ... how do i do the contents? getting confused now ... hehehe

anyway, where do i upload it?

hope you like it. :3

Or ... would you like me to host you?

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

I haven't heard back from and_love about the domain name. I'll check with her. As for the upload, I'm former SAIC (Department of Defense contractor) so that's something I'll have to do. ;)

Icarus

[xenoface.livejournal.com]

kk.

Just tell me when you hear from her. :3

-sam

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Okay, I've a message in to Sabbie (and_love).

I'm definitely hosting the site at muse-wanted. I'll have a link from the old Icarus site as the splash page, so that all my links scattered all over the internet will still work.

It's just a matter of whether or not the upload will go in a directory of www.percyfest.muse-wanted.com, or if it will go to my own domain name. I'd prefer the latter, but I don't know if she's registered my domain name yet.

In the meantime, do you have space to temporarily upload it to your site (the way we did those Percyfest templates) for tinkering? Just so you know, I have coded versions of most of my longer fics, so I'll be able to drop them into a template fairly easily.

Icarus

[xenoface.livejournal.com]

heh. sure.

wait a day or so, your layout will be found at:

http://sams-corel.rocksyou.org/isf

in a few days. :3