Stalkers.

[icarus]

Yes, I am stalking you -- wait! Don't close the drapes!

So for the early part of every week I have three 12-hour days. I'm around though, reading posts, scanning hp_dungeons and the dungeon_watch. And yes, hp_femme, I did click that Breast Cancer Society button to donate free mammograms, and indeed, tboy, Chooky and you sound like a cute couple. :p

In a fit of overwork and depressive frustration last week, I dealt with it the American way: I went shopping.

Slaving over a hot credit card, I ordered a DVD player and a stack of Stargate SG-1 DVDs. (Which is good, because I nearly shot the Fox channel for canceling SG-1 Sunday for Q-It-Up Sports -- after a 12 inning game???!! MORE Sports?)

So the DVD players here. Whoopsie. I forgot to get the right connector cord.

I will watch DVDs... I will watch DVDs... I will have my Stargate fix... I will have my Stargate....

Excuse me a moment while I deal with my addiction by writing a small Stargate slash story. But, whoa, much harder universe to write, honest, and since WG's a fan he gives me a lot of shit about these stories.

Comments

[sharp-tongue.livejournal.com]

As you know, I'm a fan, too. *grins* So if you ever want a beta for an SG-1 story for facts and canon and the like, I volunteer. :)

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Actually, given the amount of shit WG has slung at me about these SG-1 stories, I don't think they'll ever be finished. It's just been... devastating.

Icarus

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

I just realised what's going on with WG, and it makes perfect sense. It has little to do with my SG-1 stories.

Icarus

[sharp-tongue.livejournal.com]

I read that. I'm sorry to hear it, but you've identified the problem which is a good thing. That should help you two deal with it in a more constructive way. :)

[melpemone.livejournal.com]

You too?! I've been spending every cent I have on Stargate DVDs - I have seasons 1 and 2, and I'll have to wait till I get a new work assignment for #3 (woe! #3 has all the good Daniel episodes!), and now I'm resisting the urge to write Stargate fic, because god knows I'm busy enough in HP fandom. But I'll definitely cheer you on. Write me some Jack/Daniel! Pleaaaasee? ::flutters eyelashes::

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

It has all the good Daniel episodes? Which ones? You mean the infamous Need? Any others?

Actually, WG has once again (without reading my stories mind you) shredded any possibility that I could ever write a good Stargate SG-1 story, and, not to mention, he thinks that ordinary life stuff doesn't belong in an action-adventure series like SG-1 and THEREFORE slash is irrelevant. Now this is a guy who likes gay sex, and has liked A Moment of Sin and Primer to the Dark Arts (though he has never read a single Harry Potter book). He's also a person who is very negative about Anything New And Unfamiliar. He's also in a very, very, very bad place at the moment, and despite the fact that he's liked my HP stories, recently took a few stabs at them, calling them slash "about kids."

Like all loved ones, he really knows how to hurt, has successfully demolished my confidence that I could ever write a decent SG-1 story. He has also caused me to over-think and shred a decent story until a) I'm utterly stuck, and b) it's just ruined. So probably these will never see the light of day. *sighs heavily*

Sorry. He knows how to exact revenge and where I'm most vulnerable. The only reason the HP story comment didn't cause me to throw away, oh, Beg Me For It, is because those stories are finished and thoroughly reviewed.

Did I mention that he also says that any relationship between any of the members of SG-1 (that includes Sam) would ruin the dynamic of the team, and therefore people shouldn't even bother writing SG-1 relationship fics because it's, quote, "unrealistic" and wrecks something basic to the story? That there's damned good reason for the rules about no gay sex in the military and non-fraternization?

I've really taken a lot of shit from him these past few days.

Oh. Have I mentioned that he said he's been neglected these past two weeks, because, oh, I don't know, maybe I'm working part time and going to school full time? Maybe it's been a difficult transition for me and he's a fucking spoiled --

-- okay. Time to stop now. Yeah. Being busy isn't the only issue flying around right now.

Icarus

[melpemone.livejournal.com]

::big, big hugs::

I am sorry you've had to deal with this. I realise that his comments will cut deeper because he's your partner, but try to keep in mind that there's literally hundreds of people out here that honestly love and admire your writing, and believe you could succeed at any fandom. I, being one, of course. :-)

Most people - possibly all people - who are fans of a show or genre will see it in a particular light, and it's difficult to impress a different interpretation upon someone once they've set their mind upon it. This goes deeper than simple shipping preferences or canon interpretation of certain characters; often people will wrap their entire perception of a show around their idea of How Things Are. As far as I can see, WG sees SG1 as an action show with little or no emphasis on inter-personal relationships, and to write a relationship-based fic would be taking the show away from its main focus (rather like writing HP fics without magic, perhaps). You and I see this differently - maybe because we're slashers (I have known a male slasher who writes relationship-centric SG1 fic, so it's not a woman thing) and put character development over action by nature.

In regards to his specific criticism - to be honest, I couldn't agree any less. To my mind, the team dynamic would be fascinatingly skewed were two members to pair up. And the non-fraternisation rules add an undercurrent of tension and provide an exploration of character that can only add to a fic (Anais' stories being an excellent example).

As for your writing in particular - I've always found it based in very strong characterisation. You write excellent males - you don't feminise, or soften the characters in any way. In fact, you can be brutal in highlighting their faults and thus making them multi-dimentional and frankly, bloody interesting. I can't think of many other writers that would be more suited to a military-style storyline than you, if only because you'd write them as they are, and not ignore the regimented structure of their lives.

I just got your other comment - I'd say you're right. He's usually quite supportive of your writing, yeah? Maybe he feels that in contemplating dabbling in "his" fandom, you'll be in on his territory - I know Discord hasn't reacted well when I've joked about writing Neo/Morpheus slash, even though he doesn't read my work.

That's all I can offer, really. In the end, it's up to you - your life is yours, your creative muse is yours, and when it comes down to it, you have to serve your needs. That sounds harsh, I know, but I do know what it's like to be creatively frustrated and stuck between your own needs and someone else's - not to mention knowing what it's like to be insanely busy and RL sucking the joy out of everything. If you want to chat, I'll be on YM in about half an hour.

::more hugs:: Hang in there, babe.

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

I suddenly got it. I know he's having a rough time.

He's jealous. And trying not to be.

Oh.

Icarus

[tboy.livejournal.com]

It's sad that the only male to make a fuss of me these days is a chook, isn't it?

I hope WG's situation improves, and he in turn can give you a break. *hug*

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Yes, but flattering that he adores you so much. :D

Really, this is how our Monty-kitty follows wildernessguru around the house, and, yes, he's cleaning himself vigorously in WG's presence. Hmm.

WG asks what kind of chicken he is, since he used to have those Plymouth Rock hens. (He loves those little hens. "They were so small!")

Icarus

[tboy.livejournal.com]

I don't know enough about chickens to name the type; he's simply the standard white chook *g*. Not so small, quite a robust size actually. Bigger than the cat, anyway, as the cat has noted.

Chooky rummages in bushes a lot, and every time I step outside he leaps out of the bushes, gurgles a greeting then follows me about. If I sit down he'll come right up close and do the vigorous grooming thing.

I hope I don't carry this pattern into my own life. I'd hate to think the next guy I attract will be leaping out of the bushes, stalking and flashing.