Japanese final

[icarus]

All my grades have been screwed.

I got my Japanese final chapter test back. My worst fears are confirmed. An 87. The mistakes I made were primarily easy, mostly stress/panic.

I did my oral presentation today. Fucked it up because I just didn't have enough time to work on it and my confidence level was just not there. I had two other finals, plus I had to work this week. That's 15% of my grade.

The fact that it was embarrassing and humiliating was just the cherry on top. (I normally love oral presentations and am great at them.)

My Philosophy final last night, I think I did fine on the first half of the test. The final essay question... *shakes head.* Because Philosophy was backed right up to my work schedule I often had to turn in assignments late. So I got dinged on four out of fourteen written assignments. Maybe a B+. Maybe.

My Law class... should have been an easy A. But earlier in the quarter I had to miss classes to get the Philosophy homework done because there was no room in my schedule for it elsewhere. I intended to make up for it with the extra credit assignment, but never had time to do it. So that screwed up that grade. Maybe I have a B. The teacher said I did participate a lot, so that helps.

wildernessguru who's been here, watching how I use my time said, "This was the best you could have done. You've been run ragged honey, and you haven't had any time."

Compare this to last year, when I didn't have to work during school: straight A's.

All you guys who have your school paid for by your parents, or live in countries that provide free college... don't talk to me right now.

Comments

[chasethecat.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Ok, I also hate people with free college, but you're complaining about 'B's.

'B's.

Which, if I'm not mistaken, would be A's at my school, if that makes you feel any better. It doesn't make *me* feel any better, since you're getting better grades than me, and working, and writing hot fic, and I'm just lazy. But...sorry you're disappointed with the grades. It sucks knowing you could've done better, if only...

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the hugs. *snuggles back* Ten bucks says you're not lazy, you just haven't added up the hidden demands on your time.

The Japanese class was hard. So. I don't feel too horrible there.

But the Law class was an easy A. It should have been. The law professor said first day of class, "I'm an easy A. If you get a low score on a test, I'll let you re-write it. Here's your extra credit assignment just in case you screw something up. Beyond this, all you have to is participate and be here every day for class."

It's like missing a free throw two inches from the basket.

Philosophy... I spent 14 years as a Buddhist nun. My entire life has been devoted to philosophical questions and debate. The teacher ran it at a fairly high level, but I'm used to that, and in fact this class philosophically was a lot less demanding than my Buddhist studies. I nailed the tests for good reason -- this is my former career, my field.

The only way I could screw it up is the way I did: I turned work in late.

Why? For both of these? Time. Just -- pressed to the wall.

So I hope you feel better. I tripped over a chalk line drawn on the floor. If these classes were math or economics or something else I suck at, heck, no complaints.

Icarus