I'm cleaning up my relationship with my teacher, Jetsunma Ahkon Lhamo, and temple, Kunzang Palyul Choling.
In order to do so, I need to post my clean-up confession just as publicly as I once posted my criticism. I'm crossposting this to Dreamwidth, but most have seen it here.
To some of you I've alluded to my past Buddhist associations. Maybe three of you I've told in detail. If you've been curious all these years, well ... here you go. Some of you might read this and go, "Wow, I want nothing to do with this person."
I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't worried about that. LJ and fandom have been a refuge from the rest of my life. But here goes.
( The truth. )
A few of you have noticed over the years (maybe more than a few on Fandom Wank) that I've been a pretty angry and arrogant person in the LJ community and fandom. Hanging on to this stuff has been a large part of why. I hope I can treat you guys all a little better now.
ETA: If you would like to help -- PLEASE DO LINK TO THIS POST.
There are people who are using my past words and my RL name to continue to lambast Jetsunma. If this post is linked to and has hits, it will show up in the search and mitigate what I've done.
She's taken flack no male teacher would receive, just because she's a woman.
This is a mostly female community. She's a rare woman Lama and deserves our support.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
sharp_tongue put it best: "Jetsunma sounds like a woman of profound compassion."
c_smith_author has done so here: http://c-smith-author.livejournal.com/40016.html
sharp_tongue has done so here: http://sharp-tongue.livejournal.com/43103.html
rellan has done so here: http://rellan.livejournal.com/60186.html and http://rellan.dreamwidth.org/1035.html
kijikun has done so here: http://kijikun.livejournal.com/947614.html
ix_tab has done so here: http://ix-tab.livejournal.com/320965.html
violetknights has done so here: http://violetknights.livejournal.com/29145.html
undinae has done so here: http://undinae.livejournal.com/7630.html
rabidfan has done so here: http://rabidfan.livejournal.com/59623.html
bella_the_dark has done so here: http://bella-the-dark.livejournal.com/49779.html
kirby_crow has done so here: http://kirby-crow.livejournal.com/301205.html
laney_cairo has done so here: http://laney-cairo.livejournal.com/24214.html
wildebeth has done so here: http://wildebeth.livejournal.com/346799.html
wadjet_theperv has done so here: http://wadjet-theperv.livejournal.com/336397.html
severedscythe has done so here: http://severedscythe.livejournal.com/669820.html
lexstar29 has done so here: http://lexstar29.livejournal.com/46509.html
tekalynn has done so here: http://tekalynn.livejournal.com/250456.html
You guys are amazing friends, as you've proven again and again. Thank you all.
In order to do so, I need to post my clean-up confession just as publicly as I once posted my criticism. I'm crossposting this to Dreamwidth, but most have seen it here.
To some of you I've alluded to my past Buddhist associations. Maybe three of you I've told in detail. If you've been curious all these years, well ... here you go. Some of you might read this and go, "Wow, I want nothing to do with this person."
I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't worried about that. LJ and fandom have been a refuge from the rest of my life. But here goes.
( The truth. )
A few of you have noticed over the years (maybe more than a few on Fandom Wank) that I've been a pretty angry and arrogant person in the LJ community and fandom. Hanging on to this stuff has been a large part of why. I hope I can treat you guys all a little better now.
ETA: If you would like to help -- PLEASE DO LINK TO THIS POST.
There are people who are using my past words and my RL name to continue to lambast Jetsunma. If this post is linked to and has hits, it will show up in the search and mitigate what I've done.
She's taken flack no male teacher would receive, just because she's a woman.
This is a mostly female community. She's a rare woman Lama and deserves our support.
sharp_tongue put it best: "Jetsunma sounds like a woman of profound compassion."c_smith_author has done so here: http://c-smith-author.livejournal.com/40016.htmlsharp_tongue has done so here: http://sharp-tongue.livejournal.com/43103.htmlrellan has done so here: http://rellan.livejournal.com/60186.html and http://rellan.dreamwidth.org/1035.htmlkijikun has done so here: http://kijikun.livejournal.com/947614.htmlix_tab has done so here: http://ix-tab.livejournal.com/320965.htmlvioletknights has done so here: http://violetknights.livejournal.com/29145.htmlundinae has done so here: http://undinae.livejournal.com/7630.htmlrabidfan has done so here: http://rabidfan.livejournal.com/59623.htmlbella_the_dark has done so here: http://bella-the-dark.livejournal.com/49779.htmlkirby_crow has done so here: http://kirby-crow.livejournal.com/301205.htmllaney_cairo has done so here: http://laney-cairo.livejournal.com/24214.htmlwildebeth has done so here: http://wildebeth.livejournal.com/346799.htmlwadjet_theperv has done so here: http://wadjet-theperv.livejournal.com/336397.htmlseveredscythe has done so here: http://severedscythe.livejournal.com/669820.htmllexstar29 has done so here: http://lexstar29.livejournal.com/46509.htmltekalynn has done so here: http://tekalynn.livejournal.com/250456.htmlYou guys are amazing friends, as you've proven again and again. Thank you all.
