Why do people hate BNFs?

[icarus]

I really don't understand this BNF phenomenon. I just don't get it.

I don't see why people go "whee, Icarus!" when they find out their review or whatever is from me. I understand "whee, Stories!" -- or -- "whee, Icarus' Stories!" That makes sense to me, because this is all about the stories, all about the fun of writing. If you've liked something I wrote in the past, there's good chance you'll like the next one. I'm the same way about "whee, Candy!"

But I don't know why the focus shifts from the story to the person. What the hell...?

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[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

This is helpful. I think switchknife is a BNF by that measure, because she's done a lot to recomend and support other writers, research good fics and run an archive of recs for others. It's not for her obviously, because she's already read the stories.

So this is the glue that holds the fandom together. People like her or heidi8 take time out from their own longer stories to do this.

But that definition doesn't fit me. Not unless Percy Weasley has a fandom (there isn't one that I've noticed). If Percy has a fandom, okay, I'll wave the flag.

I have essays on writing that I think are worthwhile, but outside of the recent Percy Ficathon, I don't do many recs. This journal's mostly my writing.

The more I try to define this BNF thing, the more convinced I am that it's amorphous.

It has the good side of being high market recognition. That much everyone agrees on.

But for the most part it's not a nice thing to call someone.

It's an open invitation to be ripped by people who don't know you, have your stories shredded by people who hate that 'BNF thing,' whatever it is.

It dams up your creativity by making it less acceptable to take risks and put out crap. :)

It makes people who like you or your stories act a little stiff and strange when you bump into them in chat.

It creates jealousy and competitiveness. It's devisive.

Once that label is applied, suddenly no one remembers the stories.

It becomes a label for a fandom super-ego. Or alter-ego.

It was fine until someone placed that label on me in that deathmatch. Then suddenly, because someone said it, things changed. It used to be that people just liked the stories, "hey, another one from Icarus." Entertainment.

Now this 'label,' this concept, has been applied and it's become an obstacle. It puts up a wall between me and others. It makes me feel like, well, people are watching now, I'd better make this story good.

There's also the very real danger of falling for this bullshit. Suddenly defining yourself by this vague title. Taking fandom (as opposed to writing) seriously. Worse yet, taking myself seriously. That's very dangerous. Talk about a fragile platform for your self worth. Man. You'd have to collect some sycophants to keep it going.

That's rather sad.

After reading everything people have said, I've have my own definition of BNF:

It's fucking politics.

*Heavy sigh.* So what do I do?

I was so excited when I was added to the 'BNF' lists, because I perceived only the marketing end of it. I didn't see the political shit that I was in for.

There are people who go 'whee!', and I'd be a liar if I said that it has no impact.

There are people who do the opposite. In your posts here *snicker* you've basically all but said that I'm (at best) a mediocre writer. Erm. Ouch. But people react to the excessive praise and....

The natural, human thing to do is to gather your sycophants and only want to hear the extreme of praise. But I don't really buy it.

And that's still shifting the focus from the stories to the person anyway.

I have stories that are mediocre.
I have stories that really suck.
I have stories that are well-liked but have some fundamental flaws that I recognise, and I'm stunned that people like them regardless.
I have stories that are solid, good writing, that I wouldn't change. A few.
There are some where the writing, the imagery is what carries them.
There are some that the writing's just awful, but the plot grabs you.
I have some that are OOC.
I have some where the structure is stable.
Others where the structure is all over the place.

Stories I can talk about. Since the BNF thing is not about writing, but just a perception -- *throws up hands.* It's a reality I have to understand and deal with, because it's changed the way people interact with me. I'm just trying to figure out why.

Icarus

[dkwilliams.livejournal.com]

After reading everything people have said, I've have my own definition of BNF:

It's fucking politics.

*Heavy sigh.* So what do I do?

Yeah, it's politics. And being defined as a BNF can make people look at you differently, although it really shouldn't affect people who are genuine friends. They'll remember you when you were just an upstart newcomer. *G* If you continue acting the way that you always have, then people will quickly get over the whole "awe" thing - you'll only have to deal with newcomers looking at you that way, the same way you looked at Telanu or any of the others when you came to HP fandom.

In your posts here *snicker* you've basically all but said that I'm (at best) a mediocre writer. Erm. Ouch. But people react to the excessive praise and....

Me? (looking back at my posts) Er, I didn't think I'd said that at all. I think you're a good writer, although I haven't read all your stories because you write pairings I don't read. I think your writing gets better and better over time - the growth from the start to finish of "Primer to the Dark Arts" was incredible and a real delight both to witness and read. You've shown a willingness to take risks with stories and pairings that I heartily applaud. I also enjoy your essays because I think you have a good insight into writing and fandom. All of that together is what, in my opinion, puts you in the BNF group.

And don't worry about the whole BNF thing. Being a BNF is kinda cool - it means you've "arrived" in the eyes of some people, and that can make you feel warm fuzzies. Accept the limelight while it shines but don't let yourself get hooked on it, and continue to grow as a writer.

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Don't let yourself get hooked on it

Yeah, that's the main danger. I should enjoy it, but instead I'm getting neurotic. :D

Me? (looking back at my posts) Er, I didn't think I'd said that at all.

Yeah, like I said, I'm getting neurotic. Not egotistical, more like 'holy shit, I can't live up to this.' So any criticism, vague hint of criticism, implied... well, you get the idea... just reinforces my underlying state of worry and nail-biting.

It bugs me that The Courtship of Harry Potter wasn't included in the Harry/Snape quiz that came out a while ago. It deserved to be there, was rec'd a lot, but didn't get the attention it deserved.

Courtship has a fascinating, well-researched and original concept that was believably carried out (and it's very rare for someone to be able to pull off cultural pedarasty). You captured a terrific Ron and a very subtle and intense relationship between Harry and Snape.

The slow build is what really made it work. The image of Snape's brilliantly conceived gestures, the pictures of Corfu, have stayed with me -- alongside the characterisation of Snape dragging his heels every inch of the way.

I remember thinking at the time that Courtship really needed to be pimped more. :D

Er. Speaking of pedarasty and such things.

Icarus

[dkwilliams.livejournal.com]

(shrugging) I didn't even hear about the quiz so it doesn't matter to me that it wasn't included. What's important to me is that the story turned out to be better than I had anticipated - it's the one in HP fandom that I'm most proud of. Also, I continue to get feedback from people who have seen it recced on lists, so that gives me warm fuzzies.

From personal experience, I can tell you that the best thing to do is relax and not worry about it. When I was in X-Files fandom, I started a series that rapidly developed a large following - and it literally panicked me. I would get the shakes before posting a chapter, worried that it wouldn't live up to the hype, and basically worried all the fun out of writing it. It wasn't the readers' fault - I just got too focused. I had to step back and do something completely different in another fandom to get some perspective on it, and it's only a couple years later that I'm ready to go back and finish it. If I hadn't let myself feel pressured, I wouldn't have needed to do that. Of course, I don't regret my fandom-wandering - I think I've learned a lot about myself and writing through my exploring.

[icarusancalion.livejournal.com]

Worried that it wouldn't live up to the hype, and basically worried all the fun out of writing it. It wasn't the readers' fault - I just got too focused.

God, that's exactly what's going on. Good advice, if easier said than done.

Icarus