Okay, she's in surgery.

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wildernessguru's mom went into surgery at 9am this morning. *takes deep breath and holds it, yes, for four hours* *turns purple*

He's home today with fuzzhead today. WG's not Buddhist, but there's one mantra he likes, so he's doing that. Even if people aren't spiritual, there's something about having something you can do while you hope.

I'm calm, but WG is quite stressed and frightened, though he's outwardly calm. It hits you at a gut level when it's your parents. All your life, from the time you were tiny, you depend on them. You might not even get along later, but they're the center of your life in many ways. When something happens to them -- you're not ready for it. You can't be ready for it. It hits you at a visceral level that's surprising. In WG's case, he and his mom have always been close, and he has the extra weight of guilt because he's missed the last few Christmas's.

She's going to be all right I think, but that doesn't make this waiting any easier for him.

I do hope I didn't offend anyone with my last Snape-post (and hopefully it's clear that I think 's essay is fascinating and insightful). Because she's brilliant.

It's just rather intense at home at the moment.

P.S. There will probably be a lot of Buddhist stuff in my journal for a while. It's not prostyletizing, just a major part of my life (my whole family's practicing Buddhists). I'm pretty serious about it. I've stood outside the capital building with Richard Gere protesting China's occupation of Tibet; have done more retreats than I can easily count; have been in private teachings with the H. H. the Dalai Lama on several occasions, before people really knew who he was; have studied Vinaya, Abhidharma, Madhyamika, Vajrayana, etc., and some teachers have even wasted Mahamudra teachings on me; have constructed monasteries, donated thousands of dollars, learned some Tibetan... okay, you get the picture. I left my last fandom largely because of the conservative (re: obnoxious) Christian element in the Tolkien crowd.

I believe that most spiritual people (Buddhist and Christian) think they're more spiritual than they are -- that is to say, they believe their path is largely about what other people ought to be doing and spend their time selling their beliefs to others and judging what others do or don't do. Which usually means that regular, kind people who don't do that crap are way ahead. So. I hang out mostly with the non-religious because I like them more. *laughs*

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Our thoughts and prayers surround both you, WG and your respective families.

I live in an area where christian fundamentalism rules (we were both raised landmark baptist, it is an extremely oppressive branch of baptist allowing for no thought only what the minister tells you to believe, no media, no cutting of the hair or wearing of the pants for women also no speaking in public for women). At the moment we are out of sorts with both sides of the family because we have chosen not to follow these particular practices.
I always enjoy it when you share some of your knowledge of your faith with us it helps me learn something more about myself.